You're always suicidal, you won't do anything to change it. What do you want from people? You type you're suicidal like you want somone to take pity on you yet you won't do anything yourself. What is it you're looking for on this site? Or is this the way you troll people, or do you think a girl might fell sorry for you and become your friend? You're a difficult fella to understand, spit it out boy.
Truth is that people are more likely to avoid you and is probably the reason you keep getting banned from sites. You want mates then people will have to like you but you won't tell us what it is you want. You're going to have venture into your head and decide what it is you want otherwise you'll always have problems.